week 8: Crazy Mary

Money was due today for outreach: PRAISE BE TO GOD. Basically all came in within 7 days. $4700 came in within 7 DAYS!! AMEN!

This week the Lord has been speaking to me about giving. About giving ALL I have. Including a few objects I really enjoy. It’s crazy though how for worship and warefare we prayed for hunger across the globe, and I was to pray out thankfulness for what we have in America. Man did the Lord not only give me a heart for thankfulness but for giving away my things. They aren’t mine anyways. Ask the Lord this week to give you a revelation abut how much you have. GIVE SOMETHING AWAY!! GIVE TILL IT HURTS!

week seven: just the best (LORDSHIP)

This is my favorite speaker by far. EZRA GRIFFITHS, he’s on staff here at YWAM Orlando. One of the funniest and craziest men I’ve ever met.Basically he’s one of those people who can be rude but it’s actually funny, not rude.

Anyways, we are learning about LORdship. At the beginning of this weekend I started praying that Jesus would purge me of all that I hold more dear to my heart than Him. Sunday night at Status (church) they decided to make a 2 hour session of pure, whole hearted worship with area for confession, seeking wisdom, taking communion and receiving intercessory prayer. I felt a continuing press on my heart to give stuff to the Lord and felt lead to pray harder for a pure heart. I prayed all night for people but mostly that God would continue to purge me of impurities.

soo… Wednesday in small group we each picked a name of a girl in our group and took 20 min to ask God for pictures, words or verses for them. My small group leader Kristen got my name and said that God told her he was going to mold my heart into a heart of purity, that I would be a pure women of God but right now he was about to throw me into the refining fire. She said that he told her right now he was in the process of refining my heart like you throw Gold into a fire to burn out the impurities. AMEN! That is EXACTLY what I had been praying for.

Ask God for big things, for him to reveal your sin..to purify you..to show him his plans instead of your own.. ask him for patience, for what it means to really love. HE WILL ANSWER.

As I know this next season will be refining me, please pray for strength to let go of my control, plans, dreams and expectations as He is going to mold my heart toward His.

Week 6: pathways to maturity

There was a young woman who went out for a walk. It was a beautiful sunny day; Warmth on her back and mountains casting soft shadows in the distance. The sounds of nature sang, surrounding her as she walked in the fragrant meadow.  She looked around as the dim breeze blew her hair across her cheek as she breathed the air in.  An area under a large fern tree welcomed her, strolling over she found a bed of grass. She lay down.


In the distance crept a mammoth Tarantula the size of a kitchen table. Big and black and dirty as an old tire. It’s hair stood on end making it even bigger.

The woman was completely unaware.

The spider black and smooth like oil crept quiety closer and nearer.

The woman lay there oblivious to the immanent danger.

It advance quicker and faster.

She lay there smiling.

It walked upon her toes and crept up her body

moving as smooth as a snake.

Until it got to her face.

Its feet gripped the ground on all the sides of her body and enveloped it.

She did not run, she did not even scream.

No she did not.  She lay there not even phased.

No, instead she smiled as it started stinging her.

She smiled and kissed its belly.

She kissed it with passion, with infatuation.

She continued to kiss it as its poison consumed her to the death.

That is what sin does to you. Love it to death. Or put death to its love

(Word of mouth story from Joy Dawson written by Charis Fossen)

Our speaker (Steve Shamblin) told this story of what the Lord gave Joy dawson a picture of when she asked God how He viewed sin. He told her that we not only DONT hate sin but we love it. We kiss it, we submerge ourselves in it and we certainly love it more than God.

I was ashamed at my habitual unrighteous habits. consider yours


week five. compassion or anger?

This week we have been learning from Al Mcbryan about the nature and character of God. We’ve been talking about the view people have about God and his compassion towards us versus his anger toward us when we sin.  first I want to encourage you to look up what it says about this in the bible here how God is always SLOW to anger but ABOUNDING in love and compassion.:

psalm 86:15, ps 103:8, ps 145:8 proverbs 16:32, pr 19:1, and joel 2:13 among many others.

we’ve been debating lots about free will and predestination, what well-known pastors in america think (we even started talking about piper!) so cool!! anyways, its been really interesting because Al’s teaching style is answer a question and 45 minutes later he still isnt finished, we’ve been on 8 rabit trails, loked up multiple structure and still havent touched his powerpoint he intended on teaching us for that class. to say the least, coffee is a must to pay attention the whole time, you blink or day dream about a oy back home for even a second and you have no idea what rabit trail he is on.

today he told us a story from the book, “what is so great about grace” by philip yancy. He knew this guy who was telling him about a visit he took into some city. He ran into this prostitue who started telling him about herself and she ended up asking for help. She could no longer support herself by selling herself and started selling her two year old daughter to guy who wanted kinky sex. She made more money with the 2 year old in an hour than she could in an entire night. She knew it was sad but knew that it was the only way to support her addictive drug habit.

did your heart break? or did you just get angry at the mom. Your heart should break for this two year old.. but it should also break for the women. She was sold into this industry. God’s heart hurts, and he gets angry but he has compassion for these people. The guy asked her if she has gone to the church for help. She asked him back, “why?”

we dont need to hear the rest of the story, except to wonder why she asked “why” should there be any reason she feels so abandon from the church? Are we really welcoming her into our community like Jesus came to heal the sick, or are we fostering our church like a hospital that only tends to the healthy? Question yourself when you judge someone, are you welcoming them in like Christ did or are you rejecting them like the rest of society? Does your heart break for them and rejoice when they return like the father in te story of the homecoming of the prodigal son?

I challenge you this week to reach out to someone you normal would judge. Invite them to feel God’s love, just like God has when you make mistakes.