week seven: just the best (LORDSHIP)

This is my favorite speaker by far. EZRA GRIFFITHS, he’s on staff here at YWAM Orlando. One of the funniest and craziest men I’ve ever met.Basically he’s one of those people who can be rude but it’s actually funny, not rude.

Anyways, we are learning about LORdship. At the beginning of this weekend I started praying that Jesus would purge me of all that I hold more dear to my heart than Him. Sunday night at Status (church) they decided to make a 2 hour session of pure, whole hearted worship with area for confession, seeking wisdom, taking communion and receiving intercessory prayer. I felt a continuing press on my heart to give stuff to the Lord and felt lead to pray harder for a pure heart. I prayed all night for people but mostly that God would continue to purge me of impurities.

soo… Wednesday in small group we each picked a name of a girl in our group and took 20 min to ask God for pictures, words or verses for them. My small group leader Kristen got my name and said that God told her he was going to mold my heart into a heart of purity, that I would be a pure women of God but right now he was about to throw me into the refining fire. She said that he told her right now he was in the process of refining my heart like you throw Gold into a fire to burn out the impurities. AMEN! That is EXACTLY what I had been praying for.

Ask God for big things, for him to reveal your sin..to purify you..to show him his plans instead of your own.. ask him for patience, for what it means to really love. HE WILL ANSWER.

As I know this next season will be refining me, please pray for strength to let go of my control, plans, dreams and expectations as He is going to mold my heart toward His.

Week 6: pathways to maturity

There was a young woman who went out for a walk. It was a beautiful sunny day; Warmth on her back and mountains casting soft shadows in the distance. The sounds of nature sang, surrounding her as she walked in the fragrant meadow.  She looked around as the dim breeze blew her hair across her cheek as she breathed the air in.  An area under a large fern tree welcomed her, strolling over she found a bed of grass. She lay down.


In the distance crept a mammoth Tarantula the size of a kitchen table. Big and black and dirty as an old tire. It’s hair stood on end making it even bigger.

The woman was completely unaware.

The spider black and smooth like oil crept quiety closer and nearer.

The woman lay there oblivious to the immanent danger.

It advance quicker and faster.

She lay there smiling.

It walked upon her toes and crept up her body

moving as smooth as a snake.

Until it got to her face.

Its feet gripped the ground on all the sides of her body and enveloped it.

She did not run, she did not even scream.

No she did not.  She lay there not even phased.

No, instead she smiled as it started stinging her.

She smiled and kissed its belly.

She kissed it with passion, with infatuation.

She continued to kiss it as its poison consumed her to the death.

That is what sin does to you. Love it to death. Or put death to its love

(Word of mouth story from Joy Dawson written by Charis Fossen)

Our speaker (Steve Shamblin) told this story of what the Lord gave Joy dawson a picture of when she asked God how He viewed sin. He told her that we not only DONT hate sin but we love it. We kiss it, we submerge ourselves in it and we certainly love it more than God.

I was ashamed at my habitual unrighteous habits. consider yours