peace like war.

Today looks like peace and tomorrow there might be a war, but probably not. America is too powerful, and people are afraid of us.

False, they are afraid of our government. You know people overseas.. at least the ones I’ve met love Americans. We are beautiful people with wealth, entertainment, cool gadgets, pretty yards, happy families and the world at our finger tips. Does that drive you to thankfulness or disgust? Because frankly my pride indulges in the flattery and then I look at Matthew 19:21 and 22.. you know what it says? look it up..

I’m embarrassed. You know why? Because that’s me… I don’t really want to do any of that. I can fight to do the rest, but give everything up is something I have such a hard time doing.. for real.

Today I spent $55 on things I don’t need… do you know how many children that could have fed today in a third world country? I don’t even want to know, or think about it for that matter and yet.. I still spent it, that’s the sick thing.. I spent it on myself, and I even thought about how $30 a month to sponsor a compassion international child seems like such a commitment.. yet I spend that every month on random things.. I don’t even HAVE money right now.. I put $10 of gas in my tank every few days because I cant fill up the whole thing, I’m barely able to pay rent and my electric bill and I’m talking with my mom about getting an iphone or going on a spring break trip. GROSS

I’m at war with what is commanded of me. I justify my spending in comparison with everyone around me.. I don’t have that many clothes.. and I barely ever go shopping.. I don’t buy things unless I LOVE them.. but I also don’t give all I have to Jesus.. you know why? Because I’m selfish. I think solely about myself.

GROSS that’s so disgusting.. I honestly wish someone would convict me of my selfishness by slapping me across the face with my finances. Look at my bank account for the last 4 months.. what have I spent money on.. probably food, gas, rent and electric bills.. but what about coffee and Mcflurrys at Micky D’s when I don’t need them..

AHHH lets ban together and think seriously about how we don’t give away what we have, how wealthy we are when we don’t need to be.

What about instead of getting presents for our birthdays, we give the number of years old we are, that many presents away. What about when you get married.. instead of asking for all that nice stuff you think you need, ask people to give 50 bucks to a charity.. or return most of your presents and give the $$ away..

I want to see more of Jesus and be more of him to the community by giving away my stuff. Give away something this week, things others need things more than us.. and lets be real.. I’m not a fan of the prosperity gospel but I do know that every time this semester I’ve given money away when I didn’t have it, I was always given more in return from somewhere.

praise God.

2 Cor. 9:7 “God loves a cheerful giver”

Gal. 6:1-10.. you will reap what you sew 🙂


  1. I think you should get married and live in a trailer park and do wonderful ministry there. These people are judged and misjudged and need Jesus. They know hard times and need someone to love them and spread the truth of the gospels. It’s a humbling way to live…ask your grandpa Gil…he knows. Was born in one , worked his way up to a prestigious Vice president of IDQ for 25 years, lived the crazy, pompous high life and then returned to the little house at the end of a court in a trailer park to find true joy being a cowboy and lovin’ his humble life. It’s not about where we live or what we have but that true joy is found in following Jesus. Not many can live that out…including me.

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