A week ago I came back to MN from sunny California. It was a 100 degree difference for two of the 8 days I was on vacation. I got to visit Tanya my best friend who is actually my aunt. ( she’s my age, so she’s kinda like a cousin, but lived with my family in high school, so more like my sister.) She had just gotten back from Uganda which was an unbelievable experience for her, of course nothing like she had imagined. The Lord taught her and showed her things totally foreign to her previous understanding and revealed things that wereflip flopped from her expectations. I was grateful to see her and catch up after being apart for 6 months but also for the 2 days I spent all by myself. I was able to read, process and discover more of who I am and where I am going.
I still can say that I have no clue. The more I learn about God, the more I realize i know nothing. The more I learn about myself, the more I think I’ll never get myself. The more I learn about life, the more confusing it becomes.
Im thankful for the simple joys such as Starbucks lattes and old-broken sandals from “The Old City”. I am thankful for quiet morning surfers and the soft crashing of the waves under the sparkle of the dawning sunlight. I’m thankful for nice cameras to capture the memories but especially for the Creator of the Universe coming to earth to make a way for me to be with Him forever.
I want to be in the Middle East SOOOO bad. I want to get on a plane yesterday and be among those who need to hear about real peace. Their lives are crying out for joy.
I still don’t know when I will be able to go, I don’t know when I will be able to pay off my loans or when ill finish the partner development process. I don’t know when I’ll finally be among the those i love but I DO know the God who provides all those things and sustains the hearts of those who are searching. I know He is faithful and I know He is more committed to the nations knowing Him than I ever could be. And THAT is what I am most thankful for.